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Tuesday, December 08, 2009

It's better to have loved and lost...

New academic session, new classes and a new girl joined our school,
How can I forget those silly moments when every new-comer was made to look a fool..
The increased study hours, the haste to complete notes, I kept dreaming of handing them over to start friendship on a good note..
The urge to be her seat-mate, the feeling of being with her, the lil' crazy moments when I hid to scare her..

Be it "FLAMES" or a few numerological tests,
The more I think about them now, the more hilarious it gets..
The way we used to carve our desks with the names of our puppy love(s),
The way we used to tell our best friends, "Ohh yes, I am in love!"


Staring at her during prayers in school, Chasing her all the way after school..
Never did we hate our Sundays this much, Never did we lament a holiday this much,
Was it love or was it not? We just wanted to be back at school..

The group leaders we cajoled, the new friends we made..
We made sure that our pair was made,
The dream of holding her hand and dancing with her,
The mistakes we kept making just to keep feeling her..
The function finally arrived and tension crept in,
She was busy performing and I kept on dreaming,
We bagged the first prize and she hugged her boy,
I was running high fever and shivering in joy..

One fine day, I told her about me. She shied away and smiled at me,
The wait got longer and it all looked bizarre..
And then she came to me, saying, "I'm yours and mine you're"..

The end of anxiety saw the beginning of excitement,
No points for guessing that music was our prime entertainment,
The Ricky Martins were gone, The Enriques were on..
Time for a change we said.. Time now we changed, we said..
The unnecessary shave we went for, the costly deodarants we put on,
The cute cards we looked for and the money-making, non-existent xerox we went for..
The desperation of being the first one on her b'days to wish,
To the dreams of staying together in bliss..

The love was blindening, the joys were deafening,
The heights attained seemed so enthralling but the thought of fall was frightening..
The days were getting over, the long vacation drew itself closer,
A quick glance, a short goodbye,
A misty smile is what I managed in that shortwhile..
Every rise has a fall, every cruiser comes to a crawl..
Our Spring was coming to an end,
An Autumn is what the Almighty had suddenly sent..

The calendar kept rolling and the day had to come,
The feeling's sinking in and I was going numb..
Our school re-opened and my eyes searched for her,
The silence grew longer and the clock ticked slower..
I finally saw the little steps making their way,
I was all smiles and you were just so grey,
The vacation had ended but the problems grew,
Your indifference was a bolt from the blue.
The lil' scare had finally grown huge,
The fear of losing had me bemused..

I searched for darkness in darkness,
Dark had gotten life and I seeked darkness even then, perhaps to hide my life..
Once my life was vested in you and now I am running out of life,
Or wait, is it you running out of my life..


P.S: I've tried to keep it as schoolish as I could, Light emotions if dealt with heavy metallic words might just have spoilt the mood. Don't kill me for terminating the love story in the end... Special thanks to Nishant Sir who has generously helped me with some good research on puppy love/teen love/school love. Thanks for being there, Sir. I hope you guys relate to this, Comments welcome!

Tuesday, December 01, 2009

I dream of you, my dream!



Need no wings to fly always.. 

Need no eyes to see always..
Need no lips to murmur always..
What I need is to pick up a dream..
A dream that sets me on a flight..
A dream that shows me my world..
A dream that speaks my heart..
The more I chase her, the more she runs away, the more she eludes me..
One day I will, I certainly will, stand on the other side of the line,
Smile at her, rid her of all the curls, trace back to my first day of seeing her in my lil' twinkling eyes back on a winter night..
Hold her tight coz this night is different,
Way different to that first night where she was realised,
But not inside, not beside..
Tonight I have you, I sight you in me,
I feel like nursing you, I feel like playing with you,
I won't let you fly away, I have finally made you mine..
Coz' I am just not another dreamer, I am a lover..
I shall love you all night tonight,
Before I set my eyes to dream again,
Before I make a dream out of this dream!